Mycroftwave Tumblr and Fushicon

Before I kick this off, no I did not go to Fushicon, these opinions are my own. What right do I have to comment on something I didn’t go to? The run-up and after-math of the event itself. Plus it’s the Internet. Free speech yo.

Disclamer: Second part of this post, it’s not funny linking me to the likes of them. Theres a line. I know where it is. Do you?

Fushicon was this weekend just gone and I could almost guarantee it was a train wreck, from their bad PR (Fushicon Dogs, Save the world – Fushicon and Fushicon Announcement at Kitacon3), worse spelling, a high level of arrogance and more in-jokes than fucking Hipsters. Everyone I’ve talked to that enjoyed it, fair play you’ve had a good laugh and you had fun but that does not necessarily mean that it was a good convention.

A good convention relies on its attendees which according to the fushicon website broke just over half of their allocated membership (500 members only 260ish). A number of which were “Committee members”. I say “Committee members” because there was probably about over 15 of them, each with roughly the same title apart from the Head Committee member who was self proclaimed “High lord and Master”.

…”HIGH LORD AND MASTER” more like HIGH LORD AND CUNT. Bit of a joke between friends? sure, Use that as a PR video to introduce some of you committee members? I don’t think it appropriate. And thats the tip of the iceberg of arrogance. Their “manifesto” claim that EVERY SINGLE CON is running incorrectly. They was going to do it better. They were going to show everyone how a anime convention was supposed to run. Did they fuck. Cancelled events, a already small number of panels and from the pictures on Facebook for the parties an even smaller turnout.

Badly organised, lack of communication with attendees AND dealers, if this is how a convention is supposed to be run, then I’ve got to say I enjoy a badly run convention like Ayacon, Amecon, Minamicon and Kitacon; those actually have panels to go to, events to watch and a packed party with an even more packed bar.

However, I have to give credit were credit is due. Some of their ideas were different which is always welcome especially with a minimum of three major cons a year all with the same basic layout. What I’m talking about is the Masquerade, a competition/showcase for people to show off their skills at costume making or looking remarkably like a character or just being a plain troll and laughing about the whole thing. With an attendance that was at fushicon a square stage instead of a catwalk was a good idea. And in my opinion worked well for the amount or lack of people watching their Masquerade. But don’t announce that your Masquerade is going to be judged with an unknown factor (how well liked the person/anime/costume is).

In short Fushicon – lack of events and panels. everyone had fun by being with their friends. Bar the £45 fee to go to fushicon you could’ve done the exact same thing (hotel room, booze food and all) at the hotel and use that £45 for the expensive bar drinks or gone out with said friends to have a meal and then go to a club.

Now for the after-math of Fushicon. N.B – I HATE BOTH SIDES OF THIS ARGUEMENT AND BOTH CAN GO DIE IN A FIRE.

As per a feedback thread is always welcome after an event so any issues can be addressed if there’s a next time. What caught my eye was a thread by someone called CodeWarrior who mentioned that he did not like it that someone posted on his door a sign with something rude written on it on the first night of the con. The reason this was done was because he is a very large guy and as large people can sometimes be, can sweat profusely and therefore have body odour. Everyone thats been to a convention knows that theres always at least a couple of people who either forget to a take a moment to recognise personal hygiene or just plain refuse. What didn’t help his case was that he may have said some sexist/creepy/interpreted wrong things towards some ladies who was also going to the convention. Instead of ignoring him or asking him to stop, the sign was posted, the forum had a thread made.

Instead of stoping at “lets just forget about it” a 13 page thread that was unmoderated by the “committee members” of fushicon went into a full blown attack by everyone against CodeWarrior. The person who wouldn’t let it go and kept fanning the flames? A Mycroft. Now I know of mycroft as she visited the IRC channel a few times and was always complaining about being bullied and her life was horrible etc etc.

Now whats that you say? she was being bullied and didn’t like her life? She also made clear that she would commit suicide a number of times. Yes this person kept pushing and verbally attack CodeWarrior. You’d think that someone who’s been bullied would know better right? Apparently not. What really got to me is that a couple of people I know also joined in on this attack one of which has also been bullied. And both are acting like they did nothing wrong. I will not name their names but they should know who they are.

I’d be a hypocrite if I said I have never bullied a person online. However I have always offered to/have  apologised. But 13 pages of just hating and laughing at him. The thread was finally deleted by HIGHLORD AND CUNT with little to no explanation on why.

Now Mycroft, I had the hindsight to save every post she made on her tumblr and below is everything I could get before she deleted it. Oldest to newest.

One, two, three, four.
I’m the girl you all ignore.
Five, six, seven, eight.
Once you notice it’ll be too late.

I’m in so much pain writing this. Crying, wanting to cut, wanting to die, wanting someone to just care, but no-one will come forward and say “I care, I want to listen.”

Fuck the world. I hate everyone, I honestly do.

I am honestly not sure how long I can keep these urges at bay. I’m way too weak and these feelings are too strong. I’ll always be like this.

People will hate someone because they have a mental disability, but if it’s physical it’s a complete different story.

The wish to be normal will never come true. I’m sick of this!

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK I’M SO RAGING RIGHT NOW.
I can’t trust anyone, you can’t trust anyone, we can’t trust anyone, DON’T TRUST ANYONE.
When you think you’ve found a really lovely person to have in your life, they turn out to be like the rest of them.
IT’S FUCKING GREAT TO BE ABANDONED ISN’T IT. OH YEAH. FUCK IT ALL BECAUSE ABANDONING ME IS SO HEALTHY FOR ME. WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE? WHO THE FUCK DO I HAVE? NO-ONE.
DON’T EVER TELL ME I CAN TRUST YOU, BECAUSE NO I FUCKING CANT.

Someone definitely made 4 quick taps on my bedroom door at 5.40am, because it woke me up. I’m 100% it came from MY bedroom door and 100% someone knocked on it. It had to be a person.
It was too fast for it to be the dogs wagging tail and I got up to see who it was, but everyone was asleep.
I’m definitely not hearing things. I’m definitely not going crazy.
I’m staying up now because I don’t know what the fuck is happening.

Am I the only person who doesn’t send x’s at the end of texts, or when I’m saying bye when I’m chatting on the PC?
I just don’t feel it’s necessary.

Lesbians; We might not go down in history, but we’ll go down on your sister.

One thing people don’t understand about me and Borderline Personality Disorder, is that I could be at a party and all of a sudden…
I just don’t want to talk
I feel so fucking depressed
I look down
I’m being “anti-social”
That I’m being a party pooper
etc.

I’m probably just sat in the corner, “moping” and being anti-social. This is typical behaviour of a BPD. Don’t tell me to just cheer up or smile. It is virtually impossible for me to smile if I’m on a low, even a fake one. Just let me be and I’ll cheer up when my fucking brain chemicals decide to. Even with drugs or alcohol, it’s not gonna change anything.

Fucking herp-derp stupid mental shit going on.
I currently don’t feel happy or sad, just empty. Not surprised, just another fucking symptom.
And I feel like I’m in love, but I don’t love anyone. There’s currently no-one I have the hots for (excluding Ellen Page and Angelina Jolie) so, WHAT THE FUCK?!
There’s nobody I fancy or like or remotely interested in. God it’s been a year and a month…FML.

I just want someone to love me and tell me that, but no-one ever will, will they?
Who would love this? I definitely wouldn’t. No-one even finds me remotely attractive. I’m so ugly and disgusting and I’m gonna die alone.

It’s been over a year now since my first, and last girlfriend.
I hate being single. I’m just so unwanted. :’c

My dogs will always be my best friends.
They’re always there to listen to me, because that’s what best friends do.

So now my dad wants me sectioned. FML.

People will hate someone because they have a mental disability, but if it’s physical it’s a complete different story.

I am honestly not sure how long I can keep these urges at bay. I’m way too weak and these feelings are too strong. I’ll always be like this.

I wish people would text me asking how I am.
I wish people would IM me on MSN or Facebook chat asking how I am.
I wish people would post on my wall on Facebook asking how I am.
I wish people would tweet me asking how I am.
No-one does this. I am online all the time and no-one does this. Why? Why doesn’t anyone care?
You wanna know the answer? Ask me.

I shouldn’t have to remind people to ask me how I am. This is why I don’t see people as my friends, because if you were, you would bother to care and check up on someone who is battling self-harm, suicidal thoughts and a big old mental illness.

If only people knew why I barely cosplay, why I wear clothes that cover me up. The truth is, I have scars all over my stomach, my thighs and my arms. But no-one cares about that. No-one cares I once had the courage at KitaCon to take my hoody off and bare my arms. People pointed and laughed. I have never taken my hoody off in public since.
Still, no-one will care though.
I’ve had enough. If people really want to know why I’m so fucked up, have a fucking read!

If you genuinely care, as so people say, as so people say they want to be my friend and be in my life and everything like that, well then understand my brain before you nit-pick at shit I can’t help!

http://www.disabled-world.com/disability/types/psychological/bpd.php

FUCK RIGHT OFF WITH YOUR “THROWING A TANTRUM”
People couldn’t possibly understand how it feels unless you have this illness.
When you piss me off, you will know.
But hey, that’s just Lia for you with her fucking issues as always! Such a weirdo her, aye?

Oh just fuck everything!
Leave me alone. Being lonely is actually much simpler

Being me is fantastic. Every day I fear I’ll lose another person in my life because of the way I am.
I can’t help me. Don’t judge. Don’t give up on me, because I’m not giving up on you, or my therapy every week, or life.
I hate being me.

I hate people. I hate them so fucking much. This is why I don’t like meeting up with anyone or going out anywhere. I would rather poke my fucking eyeballs out!
NOBODY IS MY FRIEND. YOU GOT THAT?

I MENTALLY MURDER PEOPLE I DON’T LIKE

Read through all that? That was the person everyone supported on the fushicon forum against CodeWarrior. Both can go to hell and I really wouldn’t care.

Mycroft, I’m calling you out. Why? cause I AINT EVEN MAD.